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5/21/20
Well here it is, the last week of my last year of high school. I have to say I'm super happy we're finally done. It's been a challenge to stay focused on school these past couple of months, for obvious reasons. I think senior year is hard enough to get through normally, because it's really hard to stay motivated to do your school work when you know you're about to be done for good. This final stretch at home has made it just that much harder, as my motivation to wake up on time and do my work hit an all time low. I still did what I needed to do, though, and I've finally completed my high school career. It feels good to be done, although I still have one more day with an AP test, but I'm not worried. The AP Statistics test is tomorrow and I'm hoping it goes well, but my success really depends on what the questions are. On the other end, my friends and I have started playing this game called The Forest. It's a sort of horror, survival crafting game. With friends it can be a lot of fun, which is why I'm glad to have like six friends to play with. We're building a huge lake-house for us all to live and it's turning out pretty well. I'm excited to keep playing with all the extra free time I'll have after today/tomorrow.
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05/15/2020
I can't believe it's almost been two whole months since we began our distance learning schedule. I am truly prepared to be finished with my high school career, so the idea of there only being one week left is amazing. This week has been another quickly passing one. I spent most of that time listening to podcasts, watching Netflix, and playing video games. I've also gone on a few good walks. Recently, my friends and I have been playing this game called Sea of Thieves. It's essentially a pirate simulator game and is plenty fun with the right people. Upon its initial release, Sea of Thieves was quite popular, although there wasn't very much you could do at that point in time. Now (about two and a half years after its initial release) there have been plenty of free, content adding updates that have made the game more fun. There are many new money-making methods and fun adventures you can go on. I've also been slowly working on filling out addresses for my grad cards. Honestly, I have not done a great job of getting those done. I did the ones for my family, but I haven't sent any and haven't even got addresses from friends or people from school. I feel very behind in that regard. Six weeks down, just a few more to go. I guess it's not confirmed at this point, but seniors might be done with the school year on May 22nd. That would truly be awesome, but it isn't confirmed yet. I'm definitely ready to be done with this school year. The freedom of my last Summer vacation before college is something I am going to bask in. They talk about senior slide, but I don't think anyone could have ever imagined how badly seniors would be sliding in quarantine. It's been something around three or four weeks since I've gotten up before 9:00 am, which is pretty nice if I do say so. But it makes it hard to stay focused on my school work and keep any sort of motivation. Before quarantine, I'd do school work partly because I had to but mostly because I wanted to learn. Now, it's pretty much only because I have to do it. The thought of only having maybe two weeks left is awesome. I can't wait for that to happen, and I really hope it does. Anyway, this week has been an interesting one for me. I've begun listening to a few podcasts and reading some political theory to really figure out where I stand politically. It's becoming pretty clear that I'm something like a Marxist-Leninist as I've been doing a lot of research on the subject and find myself wholeheartedly agreeing with what I read and hear. I've also been playing video games as usual. I ended up buying the sequel to Civilization V, Civilization VI. It has somehow improved on almost every aspect of its predecessor, which is great because I really like Civ V. Plus the multiplayer actually works consistently so my friends and I have been having a great time with that.
Another week has gone by in the blink of an eye. It's weird; I'm still conscious of what day it is and what the dates are, but time doesn't feel real. I guess technically it isn't real, huh? Time is just one of humanity's many creations in a way. Anyway, I've been killing time by talking with my friends a lot, consuming too much media, and playing plenty of video games. I recently began playing Civilization V once again. It's a turn based strategy game where you develop a historical civilization and fight against other civilizations to achieve world domination. There are multiple different ways to win, and I've only done so one time in the over eighty hours I have logged. The most obvious win condition is by conquering every other civilization in your game. Otherwise you can win by: being the first to space, having everyone be completely influenced by your civilization's culture, or being elected by the United Nations as president of the world. In case you're wondering, I was elected president. But now I've been (somewhat unsuccessfully) playing a campaign with a group of my online friends. I say unsuccessfully because Civilization V's multiplayer is pretty atrocious. It's super laggy and people are constantly being frozen out of their controls, not being able to move or do anything. When it works, though, it is so much fun. Civilization is just one of those games where, once it reels you in, it's almost impossible to put down for the night. I'm sure you can imagine what I'll be doing over this long weekend. Thankfully, I can find things to do that take my mind off of the real world.
04/24/20
This week has been more of the same. As distance learning drags into its fourth week, I've become pretty accustomed to this jazz. I honestly haven't gotten bored yet, which I'm genuinely surprised by. I guess there's just enough stuff for me to get up to in order to keep busy. Most days I sleep in, play Animal Crossing for a bit, shower and eat, and then do all my school work. School takes me about 2-3 hours to finish every day, which is very nice considering a regular school day would be around 7 hours. It is sad that we likely aren't going to have an in person graduation ceremony. I was genuinely looking forward to graduating and going out with a bang of celebration, but I guess instead I'll go out with a fizzle. This does make me wonder how long we'll be plagued by coronavirus. Sounds like this might only be the beginning, which is a somewhat scary thought. I want life to go back to normal, but the only way that'll happen is if we all stop the spread until a vaccine is made readily available. Who knows how long that'll be. Despite everything, I'm still hopeful for the future. 04/17/20
This week has been an interesting one. My friend Genaro convinced me to buy this somewhat ancient game called Terraria. Many people have called it "2D Minecraft", which is somewhat accurate, but this game is really its own beast. There is so much more to do in it than in Minecraft, which is something I'm happy about because that's my biggest criticism of Minecraft; I never know what to do. Terraria is much richer in content and I've overall had a better experience with it. About four of us all have it and are playing together and it's a total blast. Playing games with friends really helps the time pass in a positive way. I think that's why I haven't really felt lonely or like I was wasting away inside. I'm able to keep in contact with people I'm close with and make me laugh. To be honest, I don't have very high hopes for the world after all this has blown over. I think we're in for a hellstorm of unknown proportions. Only time will tell, but I believe things are going to get worse than they currently are. Nobody can say so for certain, though. My only hopes right now are that I'll be able to have a graduation ceremony and I'll be able to start college on time this Fall. If those things can happen, life will be alright for me, for now at least. 04/08/2020
Bernie Sanders dropped out today. I don't really care, as I could basically see the writing on the wall back on Super Tuesday. I am disappointed but I think this will only serve to radicalize me further. Before the 2020 election cycle even started I was further to the left of Bernie. He's the only one who had a chance to beat Trump and I genuinely care about the policies he was fighting for. Mark my words: Joe Biden will be demolished by Trump in a glorious spectacle. I'm honestly looking forward to seeing it. After all the corruption that's occurred in the Democratic party this election, they deserve another four years of Trump. I'm completely over electoral politics and I haven't even voted yet! This country truly disgusts me in many ways and, at this point, I don't think I'll ever vote for a democrat. EVER. Their blatant corruption, manufacturing of consent, and refusal to give up even a fraction of their wealth and power to help out the common person has caused me to despise the Democratic establishment. They're not better than Republicans. At least Republicans are open about wanting to screw over the little guy and don't pretend to fight for us. If we ever want change in this stupid country, the people need to turn away from electoralism and make change for themselves. Community organization, the sharing of resources, seizing the means of production, revolution. These are what we need, and I'm willing to fight for them. Even if I don't live to see the results, I and people like me will never stop fighting for what we believe in. 04/03/2020
Well, it's now been a week since we started this whole "distance learning" online classes thing. It's pretty weird. Since I started public school a mere 5 or so years into my life, barring summer vacation, I've never had this much free time. We started this whole thing off with two full weeks out of school, no strings attached. It was a fun and welcome break from school, but my productivity has gone out the window. I really can't bring myself to do anything other than watch YouTube and Netflix and play video games. My average online school day so far has consisted of me sleeping through my first class, going to my 30 some minute physics class, and then doing whatever bit of work that's been assigned to me that day. Overall, class times are less than half of what they'd usually be. Time is kind of warped for me. As I'm able to "finish" school for the day in just a few hours, I have way more time than I know what to do with. Most days I just play the new Animal Crossing game for hours. Now that's a good way to spend your free time. Animal Crossing is not a game series I thought I'd be interested in, but wow am I having a blast playing it. Unfortunately, as stated before, my productivity is shot. I can't bring myself to do any work. I completely stopped teaching myself Japanese, which is a shame because I was enjoying it. You'd think having more time would allow more effort be put into it, but that simply isn't the case. This week was pretty laid back, as we had a snow day on Wednesday. It was a much needed respite from the regular monotony of the school week. I relaxed at home all day playing games and studying Japanese. This Sunday, on a total whim, I decided I'd learn Japanese and attempt to become fluent. As you can probably imagine, it's quite the challenge. Everything from the alphabet to basic sentence structure are completely different from English. But, as of now, I think I'm up to the challenge, and maybe one day I'll live in Japan for a while. We'll see about that last part, as a plane ticket to Japan is like $800 at a minimum. I just really love the idea of living in the Japanese countryside for a couple of years. First I need to learn the language, which will take a long time. I honestly don't know if I have what it takes, and I keep asking myself why I'm even trying to learn. When will I ever get any practical use out of fluency in Japanese? I've sort of been thinking of this as my belated New Years' Resolution. Most people never follow through on their resolutions, though, so that might jinx it. I think if I stick with it, I'll be happy for doing so. Learning any language has its benefits, and I really want to do my best to stick with this and genuinely learn Japanese. We'll see how long I last.
This past week, I've been getting really invested in a game called Monster Hunter: World. It's a Japanese role-playing game where you (as the title suggests) hunt monsters. MHW is a really beautiful looking game, and it is extremely fun. The core gameplay loop involves a search for the monster followed by hunting and killing it. There are many really cool weapons to use, like an axe that can transform into a giant sword. I've had this game for a while now, but this week I've been obsessed with it. Every day, after school and speech, I've gone home and played Monster Hunter for most of the night. I even went home during my off block on Tuesday to play for a couple of hours. I would probably be home playing it right now but I'm writing this blog post instead. My friends Taylor and Genaro were upset with me for going home to play on Tuesday. We all have seventh period off, and they got mad when I told them I'd be going home instead of waiting in the library for them. This seems pretty selfish to me, as it's my time off and I should be able to do whatever I want with that time. Genaro has the game too, but he doesn't like it as much as me. He calls it bad, which is funny since I didn't even have to buy the game and he did. Genaro prefers really weird games, like this bizarre one called Kenshi. You should ask him about it sometime, as he's memorized the entire lore for the game.
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